New Healing Plan Now Available!!

Healing Plan 3D

Ta-dah!!!! It has taken me over a year to write it, but here is the Healing Plan for you at long last!

195 lurverly pages to help you get well from unresolving chronic illness. The five steps I took to get myself back from very few foods, chronic fatigue and body-wide pain when I couldn’t eat or take any foods, meds or supplements to get myself well. I had to find new ways; what I call: ‘nil-by-mouth’!

Those of you who have followed my epic journey via the Healing Series will know the research and effort behind this book – I thank you for bearing with me through the tears and joy!

Behind the scenes, I have been beavering away trying to pull it all together into something coherent for you. We have….

info iconNew Website Section

You can read all about the Healing Plan here on the new Mind-Body Medicine section of the website.

shop iconPreview and Purchase Ebook or Paperback

You can see a 16 page Preview, buy an ebook and even avail yourself of a paperback version (by popular request!). I’ve deliberately kept costs down to the same as the other Plans, despite it being bigger. The printed version is a little more but much cheaper than the Gluten Plan was – and I have brought the Gluten Plan down to the same price for the ebook and much reduced for the printed version now. Why? Because I want the awareness to continue and I think, as you’ll see below, the two main Gluten and Healing plans work really well together to form a combined functional and mind-body medicine approach so people will no doubt need both at some point. I daren’t combine them; the weight would kill a poor postie! Anyway, I hope it helps.

chatNew Facebook Group

Healing Planners will be able to join a new HP Facebook group for peer-to-peer support.

blog iconNew MBM Blog & Website

And, knowing that I will be wittering on about mind-body techniques, new research, tips etc over the coming months – much as I did with TrulyGlutenFree! – I have set up a new blog site at www.mind-bodymedicine.co.uk where you can register for email updates.

Phew! I have been a busy bee.

Reviews..

My pre-launch readers were very complimentary about the book, which so gladdened my heart. Some of them are still reading it, but here are a few choice comments for you so far:

“I think this is a tremendous health plan that seeks to educate people about the emotional and psychological components of chronic ill health. It teaches the link between the physical and mental and will really help those people who firmly believe this does not apply to them! Just making the effort to purchase and read the Healing Plan will be a big step forward in someone’s healing and recovery.”

“It really is phenomenal. I nearly wrote I felt it was better than the Gluten Plan but then changed my mind as that would be very unjust as I think the GP is fantastic too! But the HP is unique and very comprehensive in addressing a particularly difficult and sensitive topic.”

“I bet lots of people will cry reading this…”

“Another masterpiece!”

“This book is truly exceptional. You should be incredibly proud.”

Eek. How lovely is that?!

Putting it into context

The creation of the Healing Plan and my own healing ‘journey’ has sparked a whole re-think of my approach as a clinic to illness, actually, and I have been busy thinking all that through as well as doing the book. My next job is to spend quite a bit of time on streamlining the Purehealth websites to better direct people to the resources they need.

To that end, I have begun by creating a new Start Here…page on the Purehealth website to guide people. Here’s the flow chart I’ve shared there:

Home page flow chart

I was quite proud of that 🙂

Anyway, I’ve made a start and over the next few weeks and months, I will develop the resources and simplify a bit as I promised in my last blog post.

I hope you like the Healing Plan anyway – do let me know. I’m sure there will be typos aplenty as I went cross-eyed staring at it for so long – as did the beta-readers! So do let me know your thoughts and anything you spy.

OK, I truly hope it helps for you. Go and have a read about it and I’ll see you on the other side in the Facebook Group where we have Jilly, Julie and me ready to chat with you! After I’ve had a lie down….

I wish you much success in getting better. I never thought I would say I was ‘normal’ again. But I am – and that’s all I ever wanted. Isn’t it you?!

No More ARG Zen – Alternatives For You

200 mg of ZenFor those of you following one of the Adrenal Plans, you will know about the brilliant anti-anxiety, cortisol-lowering Allergy Research Group Zen product. It’s worked for most like a dream. But it has just been delisted in the UK – aargh!! I wish they would stop doing this. The reason is because we now not allowed to sell straight GABA, it seems; a bit like we can’t have pure DHEA in the UK – which is actually not a bad thing in my book, but that is a whole other story.

I do actually prefer encouraging the body to make its own substances like oestrogen, cortisol, DHEA and GABA etc where possible because that way the body can decide how much it needs. Doing otherwise is a sort of form of HRT – a replacement therapy – rather than a boost the production therapy, like using 7 keto-zyme as a precursor for DHEA rather than too-strong-in-many-cases straight DHEA itself, for example or giving oestrogen or progesterone for hormone difficulties instead of checking and boosting the adrenals. That said, sometimes needs must and that’s when I’ve used it.

OK, so up to now, we have used straight GABA in Zen to increase GABA levels in the nervous system and brain. GABA is the key inhibitory neurotransmitter and is therefore very calming; some people call it the body’s Valium. Essentially, we were using it in cases of acute stress adrenal profiles to lower the stress levels and decrease the need for the adrenals to pump out cortisol – simply put: in a nutshell it was to lower stress levels when cortisol was high.

So, now Zen has gone, we need to find other ways of doing that. Obviously, it goes without saying that this is in addition to the usual lowering stress techniques like meditation, yoga, breathwork, controlling your blood sugar, ensuring magnesium levels (known to increase GABA itself) and your B vits.

The other thing we need to say is that I always prefer you do a neurotransmitter test and work with a practitioner when using these sort of things, please. These are complex supplements, designed to support and change brain levels of some key elements. Always best to know what you need rather than just stick stuff in.

So, that said, here is a list of your possible alternatives and I will change the Adrenal Plans accordingly for you too. I offer a few ideas so that you can choose what might suit you best. As always, start low and build up, trial to see how you get on and follow all the manufacturer’s – and your practitioner’s – instructions.

A straight alternative for now to Zen would be Quicksilver GABA with L Theanine, exactly the same as Zen but half the strength. Four pumps equals one capsule of Zen. I assume that will go soon too. Not TGF. You can find a lot more info on it here.

Next best, and the one I will be using in the Adrenal Plans, is NeuroScience Kavinace which includes what GABA is made from in the body plus taurine, which is also a known precursor for GABA production. TGF safe – yay! Here’s a bit more info on this one for you:

Neuroscience Kavinace 120 caps combines two powerful ingredients that together effectively address symptoms of stress, anxiousness, and sleep issues. This formula contains the GABA derivative 4-amino-3-phenylbutyric acid, which easily crosses the blood-brain barrier and acts as a GABAB agonist.*1 Kavinace also contains taurine, which functions as a calming amino acid.* Taurine is a GABAA agonist and may increase GABA levels by increasing synthesis, preventing breakdown, and blocking reuptake of GABA.*2-4 Kavinace also includes vitamin B6, an important cofactor for the synthesis of GABA.

It’s a highly specialist product that one so not cheap. If you need a cheaper alternative, you could of course take Taurine or L-Theanine on their own.

Taurine is often used at 500mg twice a day on an empty tum to support GABA production. It’s the most often used supplement for GABA-calming. ARG do a 500mg version here. TGF.

Or, Higher Nature do L-Theanine 100mg. There was 100mg per capsule in Zen. TGF.

Interestingly, L-Theanine works partly by blocking glutamate receptors but can raise dopamine so if it makes you feel more anxious, I’d be testing your neurotransmitters to see if your dopamine is high – which it can be in CSS (central sensitivity syndrome) – ME/FM, chronic pain and sensitivity type patients, take note.

Finally, when I moaned at ARG, who are acutely aware of most of my TGF patient needs by now!, they reminded me that liver is a precursor food for GABA. So, munch more liver or take a liver product – I’ve actually got some of this to try myself for other reasons, but haven’t dared yet as I can’t stand the stuff ;).

Anyway, I have partly shared all this with you so you can make choices, but also to show you what exactly goes on in my day to day life of creating these plans and protocols for you! It’s not as easy as you might think – especially when the rules keep changing!

To finish: you might find this article useful if you are suffering anxiety as it gives a good overall rundown of what to do and consider:

How to Reduce Anxiety and Stress

And see my factsheet on Stress, Anxiety & Depression here.

Hope that helps; I’m off for a lie down! Meantime, here is the info on recommended suppliers if you need it – I just remembered that right at the end!

New Year Healing: My Daily Plan

naturopathy symbolIf you read my first post of the year (and well done if you did; it was massive!), then you’ll know that I am focusing on my physical body this year, having done tons on my brain retraining and subconscious work the last two years. My poor little physical body feels a bit left behind and needs a bit of TLC and rebuilding now.

Some of you asked me to share what I plan to do so here it is for you. This will evolve, I have no doubt and, as you’ll see, the physical work needs to be dovetailed with the work to keep my amygdala desensitised and new brain neural pathways strengthening so I can maintain my food reintroductions! It also needs to fit in around my work if I am to develop this chronic illness work the Universe seems to have chosen for me!

From a physical perspective, the aim is primarily to start encouraging better lymphatic flow, tissue and organ oxygenation, muscle flexibility and strength. I also have a feeling I am still holding trauma in the muscles and that needs to be released.

Time was when I was really strong, fit and lean, worked out several times a week with free weights and in the gym and had powerful upper body strength from all the massage and manipulation work I was doing in-clinic. Now, I feel weak, tight and congested much of the time.

I sit on my backside most of the day writing, reading and answering questions. When I was really thin, I had to sit on a few cushions as it was so bony-painful. I also had to wear lots of warm clothes as I was so cold. Now, the food is going back in and the pounds are piling back on.

This is to be expected – when the body has been in starvation mode for as long as mine has, it will happily cling onto every calorie you give it for a while until it feels it can trust you again. That’s a survival mode switch and there’s no getting around it. If you restrict your food intake, for whatever reason, the body just gets more efficient at storing and using what you do give it as fat mainly. That’s why food restriction diets don’t work.

Women are especially good at this. We are the ‘feeders’ of the babies; it’s our job to keep the species going, if you like, and we hold more fat deliberately so we can continue producing enough hormones to have and feed babies during the leaner, scarce-food times.

Anyway, I am being kind to my body and giving it some TLC and a year to get used to me eating again. Which it will.

The importance of Self-care

Image result for messy hair cartoonWhen we are in chronic illness mode, we tend to ‘give up’ on our physical bodies; we distrust it, don’t like it, blame it, even hate it. I know I did. That often translates into self-sabotage types of behaviour, which of course can be horrific for some souls, but it can very commonly be seen in simply avoiding looking after yourself in the ways you used to.

Part of this next healing phase for me is to restart some of those. I’ve had my hair done into a new style – braving a big proper hair salon with smells n everything – started massaging oil into my nails which are as dry, ridged and bumpy as sandpaper and today treated myself to some ‘proper’ hair products and bugger the chemicals. I used to model my hair, for goodness’ sake, and my family will testify to some of the weird and wonderful hairstyles I’ve had -including very high sticky-up ones, pink, sponged-green and even an M shaved into my hair. Oh yes, I had fun.

Someone said to me the other day that I’d had the same hair style ever since he’d known me. That is NOT good. I realised during this last decade or so of illness, I had barely even looked at my hair really, so I vowed to start with that in my self care and now I have.

I used to LOVE having long baths with a glass of wine, some music or a good book. In fact, I used to finish work, get straight in the bath and call friends or family for a chat. It was my ME time. Then, I started reacting to the bath products in the water, then to the water itself, then I had panic attacks even getting into filtered non-chlorinated water.

Recently, I have been able to start having baths again. The first few resulted in panic attacks. The next few I meditated and WHEE’d in the bath (I just wanted to say that!) to tell myself I was safe. Then I had plain baths and, today, I am up to ones with Faith in Nature bubble bath, a candle and a glass of wine (sometimes). To treat myself and celebrate my bath progress, today I used a voucher from my birthday to buy this bamboo bath rack:

Bliss.

Anyway, I share all that to illustrate the self-care point. This is all part of the physical body healing plan for this year. To make friends with my body again.

checklist iconDaily Healing Plan

So, here is my daily plan, such as it is, in case it helps you – I’ll point out all the new stuff too as I know it gives some of you hope and you ask me to (stop press: coming back here after I have written this post, I have even astounded myself at the number of new things!!):

Wake. Hot water and lemon (new) or ginger (new) or a coffee (bean to cup)

Breakfast: Smoothie with fruit, slowly adding greens (new), banana, a date (new), almonds (new), brazil nuts (new) and sometimes cashews (new), flaxseeds (new) and pumpkin seeds (new) all blitzed up with RO water (not got tap yet) in my blender. I make enough for one and a half big glasses. I might add supplements in to it as I get to them. I currently spray magnesium oil (new) on after a shower and have started working on adding the TGF core supplement protocol (new). I also want to add some spice like turmeric and have got some fresh root ready for the purpose.

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Before starting work: if it’s raining, I do a 10 or 20 minute morning, energising Qi Gong routine. If it’s fine, I walk up and down the road, which involves two steep hills and a glorious view of the sea, more than enough to set you up for the day! If I’m having a crap, poorly day, meditation for 20 minutes. If I have a migraine, I can’t meditate; I lie down and read, watch Homes under the Hammer or sleep, depending on how bad it is!

Mid-morning: drink the other glass of smoothie. I am perpetually hungry – I assume to do with the insulin control loss of PCOS and the gluten related disorder causing malabsorption. I need to eat very frequently or I will fall over. Or kill P. If I’m really starving, I need more fat so I might add half an avocado and re-blitz.

More work til lunch.

Lunch varies. Usually omelette or egg-based (new) or left overs from the night before. Often fresh mackerel or fish from the harbour. I am trying to get back to salad. I went off it for a long while because of my mouth pain. You’d think chewing leaves would be easy, right? Nope. The grinding motion was really painful a lot of the time so I just stopped and ate soft, non-grindy foods instead – loads of cooked root veg and fish mainly. Even things like spinach (grindy) or broccoli (couldn’t bite through it unless overcooked which I hated) had to be avoided because of the mouth pain. It might be a slice of roast beef now too (new). I’d love to get soups or casseroles or (please) curries in and I’m working on that.

I might have an apple (new) or a pear (new) to finish my lunch with something sweet.

After lunch is my most vulnerable time of the day. I have learned to just rest if I can. I often meditate for 20 minutes and then do some personal bits and bobs such as cooking, ordering stuff, putting the washing on, looking stuff up etc.

I am ALWAYS hungry about half an hour after I have eaten lunch. I haven’t worked this one out. Adrenal crash maybe from the exertion of digestion or gastric dumping syndrome I’ve had suggested to me, but haven’t worked on yet (part of this year!). It doesn’t matter what I’ve eaten; it always happens.

I’ve tried everything. Nothing works like 2-3 squares of really dark chocolate (new). Maybe it is a magnesium need. (I just thought that as I wrote it as a craving for chocolate is often a magnesium need). Anyhow, that’s what I do. When I couldn’t have the chocolate, it was a nightmare; I’d feel like I was going to collapse to be truthful. I recall P had to have the chocolate ready for me to pop out of a clinic appointment with a patient and give it to me as soon as he saw my pale face run into reception lol. Poor P. When I couldn’t have the chocolate – or a magnesium spray or any supplements – my saviour: plaintain crisps came to the rescue. I somehow needed fat and the salt which is what makes me feel it is to do with my adrenals. I swear those crisps stopped me losing even more weight. I still have some occasionally in the afternoon.

Image result for hibiscus teaBack to work. I am trying a cup of tea here (new). I have so far had Golden Monkey black tea – very gentle. I have several new ones to try and started with hibiscus flowers today, bright red colour and bursting with Vitamin C. Focusing on anti-histamine and nourishing types such as lotus root, moringa and olive leaf as well as my faves like spearmint and licorice.

In this new year, after lunch and my break, I will be focusing on writing the Healing Plan and doing the chronic illness development work. That involves reading, listening, watching stuff and writing mostly. This year, part of my plan is to build up to going for a longer walk three times a week and listen to a training podcast. I have got several series saved up especially for this that I’m really looking forward to.

Of course, this has physical body benefits in terms of the walking, the fresh sea air and resting my eyes on the sheer beauty of where I am lucky enough to live. This increases lymphatic flow, oxygenation and muscle strength as well as overall cardio fitness. Listening to the podcasts is training, but it is also part of my neuroplasticity work to keep strengthening those new neural pathways that healing is not only possible, nor even probable; it is a question of time and putting the effort in. Listening to others’ stories and understanding how things went wrong for me – and many chronic illness sufferers – and how to turn it around is a big part of the therapy.

Sometimes, of course, it is best to use the walk as ‘movement meditation’ and just concentrate on what you’re seeing around you. It’s a balance and intuitive.

Come back in from walk. Check for any urgent emails, finish off anything needed. Once I’ve finished emails, if I’ve not done a walk, I will usually do a 10 or 20 minute evening Qi Gong routine to release stress. There are shaking exercises in this that I find really work for me; I feel miles more relaxed in the evening if I’ve done them.

Interestingly, so-called trauma release exercises usually involve muscle ‘shaking’ so I am starting with the Qi Gong routines, but may upgrade to TRE or psoas release exercises later on when I feel ready. These are specific methods of releasing stored trauma and stress from the body tissues. I have tried them but they are too strong for me currently. If I feel rubbish, I will have a bath or do some more meditation.

Go and have some tea. Nowadays, that could be fish or seafood, egg (new) or meat (new) with courgetti pasta (new), mini baked, jacket or boiled potatoes (boiled in tap water!)(new), mayonnaise (new) or tomatoes (new), mushrooms, cucumber (new) or root veg with greens such as spinach, broccoli or cabbage mostly. I might have a glass of wine (new) rarely if I feel like one – usually if I have a bath, see above!

I might then follow that later on when I’m watching the telly with a couple of squares of chocolate (new) or a portion of my current fave: a nut fruit crumble made using apples (new) and plums (new), ground pecans (new) and almonds (new) with either dates (new), coconut sugar (new) or honey (new) and a little grapeseed oil (new).

So, that’s the ideal and what I can do food and energy-wise so far. It doesn’t always work out like that, of course, for various reasons, mainly if I feel rubbish or have got loads of work on, but that’s what I am now aiming for most days.

And that’s a heck of a lot better than life has been I can tell you!

As I have said many times, you need to have a plan, you need to know what you’re aiming at and you need to put the work in to get better. This is not as simple as taking a pill, although if that’s all you can do for now, that is fine. Like me, maybe you can start with lying-down meditation and WHEE and, just by doing that, you will start to turn yourself around and point yourself in the right direction for wellness.

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For me: I am determined to keep all the ‘body balls’ as I think of them in the air. I need to keep the emotional trauma work going with the hypnotherapy, WHEE, CBT etc, maintain the mental, cognitive neuroplasticity work to strengthen those neural pathways, continue my ‘spiritual’ work with the meditation and connection to the Universe (the most weird and hardest for me to accept, but ultimately, the most change has come from this) and now add in the physical work to build nutrient levels and optimum physical functioning. Ultimately, this will also build into better social connections and stepping back out into the world as a fully-well person.

Just a wee bit to do there then – I swear this getting better lark is a full-time job!

This year, peeps – are you coming with me???

Free Mini Self-Healing Masterclass

Mini Masterclass in Mind Control

Our Julie‘ did a free live self-healing masterclass series on the TGF Facebook group this week. She is very brave! If you missed them live or aren’t on Facebook, I don’t want you to miss out as they were really good. Ok, I know I’m biased because she helped me personally but they are still good, so there 😉

I thought I’d share the Facebook comment I wrote after watching Day 1 for you as it says pretty much what I want to say again after the whole series: think of this as part of your self-healing prescription and brain retraining work and go listen to it!

Just catching up with these, Julie, but if this one is anything to go by, this series is a MUST WATCH folks.

Think about these classes as part of your brain training – hearing positive thoughts that you can get well and listening to techniques that can help you will ultimately help to start turning your brain around to a new way of thinking, so do listen.

On specifics in this one [Day 1], there is some excellent advice about reactivity – to food or chemicals – and how the brain is involved in that, about starting to question whether you will always react or is that a conditioned response now, a learned brain pattern, and learning to be friends with your body.

If it helps to illustrate the importance of this kind of information, I’ll share as per! When I first started – long before I met Julie – I was asked to stroke my legs once a day. I thought they were potty but actually I couldn’t do it!! That shocked me and it was used as an illustration of how much I hated my body for doing what it was doing to me – I hated it that much, I loathed it! It took me a long time to realise that I wasn’t being kind to myself and that the physical reactions had grown from ‘just being grain and dairy sensitive’ to a kind of self sabotage – totally unconsciously. The more I kept telling myself I was reacting to food, of course the more I reacted to food.

Also, just before I started to get foods back in, Julie kept asking me now I had calmed the amygdala and system down, why I thought I would still be so reactive? Of course, I scoffed and poo-poo’d greatly but the question did go in and I thought well, let’s see. I didn’t react. That taught me! It might be that you do still react to something – that doesn’t mean you aren’t getting better – just continue on the amygdala calming route and you WILL get there. Who knows how much time that will take (2 years for me) but at least you are on the right path and eventually you will more than surprise yourself!

Oh lol, as usual I have written a bloomin essay! I think I shall post these on the blog and comment on them so everyone can see.

Well done Julie – keep it up and if you’ve not listened, pls do so as part of your amygdala work – that’s a prescription 🙂 x

OK, so you can see all five replays on the Facebook group or on Julie’s website.

Do go and listen to them as part of your healing ‘journey’; I promise it will help. If you’re inspired by it or feel a session or two with Julie might be a good idea, remember she is part of our Purehealth team and you can book a free exploratory chat with her here.

Enjoy, and thanks for doing that for us, Julie.

When Will I Get Better?

Brain iconAh, the sixty million dollar question, isn’t it? I read an interesting post from our friends at SCD Lifestyle (the ones who do the leaky gut prog here) and the start of it made me remember something I was going to write about. Let’s begin with what they wrote:

Lately, we’ve been getting a lot of questions along the lines of: “When am I going to get better?”

I get emails like this all the time:

“Hi guys, I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease 5 years ago and I started SCD 2 weeks ago. So far my energy is better and my diarrhea’s been cut in half. My only question is: when am I going to heal? Do you think I even will be able to? Right now I can only eat 8 foods.” – Christina

I love this question. Mostly because when I was sick 7 years ago I spent endless hours trolling Google trying to find the answer myself. So I’m going to share some of the writing I’ve done about this before… because I could reply back with any number of cliché inspirational sayings we have, like:

  • “It took a long time to get sick and it takes a long time to get better”
  • “This healing process is a marathon, not a sprint – you’re doing great!”
  • “Everyone has a custom diet that works for them… you just have to keep testing until you find yours”

Each of these reassuring clichés is completely true, but what I love about Christina is: she already started the diet. She already accomplished the most difficult part of taking control of her health by overcoming thoughts in her head like “What if it doesn’t work for me?” or “I don’t have time to cook all this food.”

Starting the diet is not only the first step, but it’s the most important one. Christina is going to be just fine.

How do I know?

She cut her BM’s by 50% in two weeks.

50% Improvement Is Dramatic

Sure, she’s isn’t healed yet, but let me put 50% improvement into perspective for you.

Imagine you finished a new project at work and it was fantastic… a total home run. The following week, your boss calls you into his office and says, “You did such a good job on the last project I’m going to double your salary and give you a 200% raise.”

What would a 200% raise do for your life?

Doubling your income would be pretty awesome, right? Maybe make things a little easier…

Well, so would a natural 50% reduction in your symptoms.

How true is that?! But also how true is it that we often can’t see that improvement for what it is? I am often faced with people who have made really significant improvements in their symptoms and diet, but who can’t see it. All they can see is what they’ve still got left to do and they fail to celebrate how far they’ve come.

It reminded me of what is termed ‘catastrophising’. I did a lot of it, and catch myself still doing it. It helps me to know that, in fact, we are programmed to do it.

Whilst I was reading around for the healing series, I read a lot about the negative bias in our brain. Essentially, we are programmed to look for the danger in life – it’s what kept us safe and alive as a species! – but sometimes it can get a bit out of control.

I think it was Rick Hanson’s work that made me most aware of it. You can read his blog post series on it here:

Confronting the Negativity Bias

In some ways I was aware I was doing it, but eventually it became a habitual and very unhelpful way of thinking. I would wake up every day and my first thought was along the lines of : ‘well, I wonder what I will have to cope with today?’, ‘what symptoms will hit me that I’ll have to get through today?’ etc etc, ad infinitum. I literally steeled myself for what was going to hit. (And I do mean literally there – I became very tense, muscle-stiff, steeled, rigid if you like..) Of course, in some ways it became a self-fulfilling prophecy. You become what you think most…

Now, of course, it is totally understandable when you feel crap and in some kind of pain mentally, emotionally or physically much of the time. I’m not judging myself or you (OK, a bit myself, I admit!). But, I did find I had to become aware of it and make actual conscious efforts to turn it around; to stop it being habitual thinking, a conditioned, almost Pavlovian response. It was part of my healing process to realise what I was doing and to stop it. Easy to say, tough to do.

It is very difficult to try and see the positives in life when you feel so rubbish. I know. That’s why people tell you to write what you are grateful for every day in your journal when you go to bed and such like. It is trite as heck. But it actually works. It is part of the neuroplasticity training, if you like: changing a negative neural pathway that has developed a deep groove with overuse of the negative thinking and building a new positive pathway and repeating it over and over in various ways to strengthen it more and more. It takes time.

Part of my therapy with Julie was a complete fight as I tried to turn this catastrophising around! Oh we argued like heck sometimes. She challenged my thought processes and I defended them to the hilt, of course. We rarely came to an agreement there and then but it seemed to percolate down over the next week or so and I caught myself challenging myself – and of course chuntering about Julie who had invariably been right. Not all the time (she’s reading this and we don’t want her to get a big head ;)) but most of the time. Tsk.

Anyway, I can only tell you what I understand by catastrophising, so I asked ‘our Julie’ for her take on it for us. And she wrote us a new blog post! Have a read here:

Catastrophizing

Ok, so she spells it with a z and I spell it with an s. I had to check that, of course, pedant that I am – you can use either. Phew, thought I was going to have to change all mine!

Anyway, Julie gives some useful tips to help you notice you’re doing it and stop yourself. The bit about not assuming things will be the same every time is a good one. I remember when I started to reintroduce foods again, I was panicking I would get the same reactions as before until she said to me: ‘Why would you think you are going to react? That was before your treatment and this is afterwards. You are totally different now.’ That was very powerful. It worked and it was true and I still say it to myself all the time – building a neural pathway. Lesson learned.

Julie gets it absolutely right in her last bit:

Allow yourself to examine the evidence, searching for real facts not assumptions, and never base the future on the past! Just because something was, does not mean it will always be.

Begin to believe that, and in so doing, your brain will rewire itself and start to run a new programme in the mind and within the body; a new programme that promotes health and wellbeing.

There endeth today’s lesson; hope it helps. In essence, to answer the question we started with ‘When will I get better?’, turn it around a bit and instead ask:

How much better are you already?

Then work on the rest.

You WILL get better, believe it.

Mental Health Guru Deborah Joins Us

DeborahColson-speaking Phew, hot on the heels of Julie (clinical hypno) and Anne (nutrition: genetics), let me introduce you to Deborah (nutrition: mental health) who joins us now too on the clinical referral team. Oh, and there’s me – I keep leaving myself out! Micki (director, chronic disease, gluten and ACE disorders).

You can see everyone here so far on the Support page.

Anyway, back to the lovely Deborah..

Deborah and I met a few years ago when I attempted to do an MSc in Nutritional Therapy at Westminster, sadly before I was well enough. I had to be in London two days running every month and just couldn’t get up to do the second day, so had to give up. Never mind: I wrote the TGF stuff instead so it all turned out for the best – and  met Deborah and some other nutritiony friends to chat with, so it wasn’t all bad!

Nutrition for mental health 

I always thought that Patrick Holford’s work on nutrition for mental health was pretty on the ball and read everything he wrote voraciously. Then, he was involved, from memory, in setting up the Brain Bio Centre in London where I tended over the years to refer the more complex cases.

Deborah and I chatted over coffee one day in Westminster and I discovered she was one of the main therapists there so, ever since, I have given her name out specifically to people who need mental health, cognitive and child behavioural support.

Lately, I have been finding people with pyroluria and histamine issues, imbalanced neurotransmitters, magnesium deficiency, brain ‘allergies’ and the like causing anxiety, depression and mental health struggles quite a lot, which is a shame.

So, I sought Deborah out again and asked her to join the clinical referral team for this kind of specialist biochemical help. Happily, despite being yet another busy bee, she agreed:)

I think her biochemical approach dovetailed with Julie’s ‘working on the subconscious’approach to anxiety and depression will be a really strong combo therapy. I often refer for both as the two tend to go in tandem.

Deborah Colson, Functional Medicine, Brain, Neuro & Mental Health  You can see Deborah’s page on the shop here. She works best on phone, email and face to face in London. She really knows her stuff on this and cognitive, brain and neurological conditions and is a lovely, caring person too. She’ll help, I’m sure.

The clinical referral team is almost complete, I think, now! I’m just trying to find a homotoxicologist/complex remedies homeopath and a herbalist to join us now. I’ve a few feelers out, so working on it for us.

Meantime, welcome Deborah from all of us x

ACE Approach To Illness

Brain iconI am gradually pulling together the updated Purehealth approach to chronic illness now I am feeling so much better myself. I am working out what really helped over the past 2.5 years to get me from 20 foods to almost all of them now. (See here if you’ve missed that!).

Anyway, I saw this post today on ACESTooHigh.com which is pretty long but really gives a flavour of what I am trying to evolve as our virtual clinic approach nowadays – a combination of biochemical, physical, psychological, energetic, environmental and spiritual medicine. (Spiritual does not mean religious, by the way, it means meditative, connection etc; I’ve yet to find the right word for this as I know this word is putting people off, it did me :))

I am essentially trying to develop a UK service similar to the functional medicine nurse’s approach talked about here. Have a read; it’s fascinating and very similar to the blueprint I followed and am writing as the Healing Plan for you. First section is complete, Julie is creating and recording a new Stage 1 hypno session for us with phrases and ideas I know really helped me right at the beginning, and I hope to start writing the second stage tomorrow – a whole day writing in the office, yay!

The single best medical appointment of my life was when a nurse practitioner asked about my adverse childhood experiences (ACEs)

I’ve got an up to date ACEs questionnaire to share with you soon when I get a chance.

Update: Just as I had published this, I then saw this little snippet on Yasmina Low Histamine Chef’s site, which also makes my point. She has followed a similar route to mine.

Note, she has kindly sent me her brain workshop to review for us all. I will report back as asap – if it is very similar to mine, it will save me a job writing that part of the plan!

What helped me heal (in order of importance – in my view):

  1. Retraining my brain for healing – check out my recent workshop for more on this.

  2. Eating a diet made up almost entirely of foods containing antihistamine and anti-inflammatory properties.

  3. Anti-Inflammatory exercise like yoga, practiced several times a week (read more about histamine and exercise in this post).

  4. Carefully selected (few) supplements.

  5. Doing my utmost to be at peace with whatever I can manage, even if it’s as simple as being able to get out of bed that day. It’s amazing when I stopped attaching importance to accomplishments that I was suddenly able to do more than I had in years.

New ‘Virtual’ Therapy Team

alt medicine iconIn my recent quest for health, I found it incredibly difficult to know who to see for what, who was any good and what I needed them to do to help me! I swore if I ever get better – thank you Universe, Lordy or whoever! – I would try to make this process easier for others in the same boat. Let’s face it: the last thing we need when we’re poorly is more worry, research time and risk.

The fact is that there are a ton of different therapies and therapists out there, but who do you choose to help you?

If you can get someone through recommendation, life is a whole lot nicer for both therapist and client. It takes some of the worry out and you’re already starting in a positive place with a modicum of trust, which, according to the statistics, leads ultimately to faster resolution of the health issue. OK, it might not work out for whatever reason, nothing’s 100% guaranteed and we’re all different, but it’s a lot better than sticking a finger in a directory or Googling for hours on end and guessing!

When we had the physical clinic, this was a lot easier, of course, because we could choose who we wanted to work with us. Now I work more digitally, it is a bit harder but then I thought – er, not; it could actually be easier as I now have access to therapists wherever they happen to be! A lot of what we do can easily be done on the phone or by Skype and, as you know, I set up the Support Calls and they have worked brilliantly though I say so myself – and so do the people who’ve had them when they have given me feedback. All good 🙂

I simply can’t do everything myself, though, much as I want to, being the control freak I am! I spend much time on those calls working out where someone should go next with their case and then who or what type of therapist or approach might help them with that. Now, to make life easier, I am trying to set up our own little virtual team so I can say chat or see x, y or z and see what they have to say on it.

That will take some time obviously.

Meantime, you can read more about my virtual team approach here:

Clinic Team

Become A  Purehealth Practitioner – read this if you’re a therapist and want to be part of it. I’m not charging fees or commission, but I want some help with blog posts, factsheets, courses, mentoring etc if I need you. A kind of quid pro quo arrangement (although, of course, this makes more work for me so, if it goes mad, I might need to adjust this!)

I’ve put a new section called Therapy Appointments on the shop and that’s where any therapy services, mine included such as the Support Calls, will be from now on to keep it all in one place for you. That page will explain how the process works and I’ll need to add a few bits and bobs to the FAQ no doubt as I go along.

Brain icon For now, our first Purehealth Practitioner is Senior Consultant Hypnotherapist/Behavioural Therapist Julie Poole, who I have already mentioned to some of you and I know some of you have already booked in with her as I have been extolling her virtues since she helped me!

I chose Julie first simply because the type of person I most want to refer to is usually a person who deal with the subconscious and brain. This is why Philip and I worked a lot in tandem originally in-clinic: he was mind and I was body! Since Philip went off and became a voice-over artist instead (grr), I’ve had to refer mainly to online resources and people I don’t know. This is where Julie comes in – now I have someone to help on this really important side of getting well. It’s, quite frankly, the combo that works best and quickest.

This is Julie’s therapy page where you can book a free chat, session or course of treatment.

All I need to do now, then, is work out who else I fancy being part of our team and go and persuade them!

I hope it helps. Should make life a teensy bit easier for all of us, I hope. Enjoy 🙂

New Free Chopra Meditation Starts July

Yay, a new one for us to do. I love these meditation programmes! This new one starts in July. Register, do it once or twice day and enjoy. It’s the talky bits at the beginning of each one I find help me almost more than the mantra meditation itself. See how you do with it.

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Chocolate, Wine, Nuts, Eggs Back In..Is This Really True?

Brain icon It’s been 6 months since my last confession (or big post in the Healing Series anyway!). At that point, we were discussing brain retraining techniques to add to our calming-amygdala strategies and I was wishing I had time to devote six months to getting better. Well, the good news is: I didn’t need to…

THE FOODS ARE GOING BACK IN!!!!!!!

Yep, as of four weeks ago, I have been putting foods back in daily – anything and everything I fancy, except the grains and dairy of course. Yet. I’ve not stinted. I’ve just gone for it. I know: you can faint with me now.

Where It All Started, Some Background..

If you recall, I had suffered numerous symptoms for years, with chronic fatigue syndrome, food intolerance and IBS type symptoms mainly. I wasn’t getting well enough with my usual interventions, despite being on a wheat and dairy free diet, which was becoming more and more restricted with other foods being ‘lost’ over time. Garlic caused ear swelling, coffee the stomach spasms, citrus my oesophagus to close up and rashes on my palms and on and on; the list was growing. Then the fatigue worsened and I could hardly stand up. I was cancelling patients left right and centre.  I started to get regular migraines, mouth sores and excruciating jaw pain about 8 years ago.

For the fatigue, I checked for anaemia and discovered I was severely anaemic. Hallelujah I thought, at least I could take iron and feel better. However, I couldn’t keep my iron stores up, then couldn’t tolerate the iron and thought I must be coeliac. My GP refused to test me and, at that point, we didn’t have any other choices so I gave up gluten. I improved for a while but it all came back. I investigated why coelaics don’t get well and fell off my chair when I found a really high number of them don’t heal their villi. Is that what’s going on, I thought. Not to be outdone, I found and introduced the gluten gene test to the UK.

That’s where I discovered I had the genes for a gluten related disorder and have since done a ton of research into NCGS (non coeliac gluten sensitivity) and the damage it can do. That’s also where this blog started as I recorded everything I was finding out. Heck, I even broke the story in early 2011 about GRDs in the UK, see here.

Went TrulyGlutenFree…

I thought that was my key. I found that most coeliacs and certainly NCGS sufferers don’t get well on a traditional gliadin free diet, so I invented the TrulyGlutenFree grain and dairy free diet. I followed that for two years. I felt a lot better, but I found that my symptoms would return regularly. At that point, we didn’t know about cross-reactive gluten foods like we do now – thanks Cyrex – but I had cut almost all of them out anyway, gradually sussing that each ‘attack’ seemed to coincide with a food type.

Went AIP…

In fact, almost four years ago now, I went AIP (autoimmune protocol) although it wasn’t really known as that then. Basically, in desperation, I had cut out anything I knew as a nutritionist could cause inflammation and scupper gut healing. I assumed the whole lot was to do with damage done by the gluten related disorder causing hypersensitivity to other food types and increasingly to pretty much anything. I thought the symptoms were most likely down to food reactions and was just cutting more and more out in a bid to find the culprit and feel better.

On the AIP diet (no grains, dairy, nightshades, seeds, nuts or pulses) for 6 months, my fatigue abated a bit, but the mouth pain and migraine were still especially bad.

Went Few-Foods Elimination Diet…

So, I decided to do an elimination few- foods diet to really calm my system down and gradually then put foods back in to trial them one by one and see what my own healing diet might be.

Problem was: after two months on the few-foods diet, I just couldn’t get anything back in! And I have been left with those few foods ever since. My diet has consisted of wild fish and shellfish, root veg, some green veg and some fruit – about 20 core foods. For. Almost. Three. Years.

This was not a good – or healthy – position to be in. It seems healthy enough but is actually pretty deficient in some nutrients –  and extremely depressing. Life became ever smaller.

Not Much Left…!

When I started losing even those foods, could only put olive oil on my skin and even RO filtered water made me ‘react’, I finally twigged that this was possibly not (just) biochemical and that my mind was involved in some way or another.

Could it be that the NCGS was causing the original issues but my mind had gone a bit awry about the food reactions or could my body be trying to tell me something? Why was I becoming super-sensitive to so many things, as I know many of you reading this are? I started to investigate other reasons for my pain and super-sensitivity and, if you have been reading the Healing Series, you know I have been working very hard on this now for two years. I didn’t really have any choice: at one point I was down to a size 6 and had lost water, I couldn’t take any meds or supplements to help myself. This was serious stuff.

What Can I Now Eat..?

Anyway, I’ll return to the story in a bit. For now, let’s have the celebratory bit for you! These are the main foods I now have back in, more or less in the order I put them back in. Yes chocolate was first and wine was second. I’ll explain why in a bit; there was reason behind my madness, promise.

Image for Sainsbury's Vintage Cava, Taste the Difference 75cl from Sainsbury'sChocolate, Cava wine, various fruit and veg, cashews, walnuts, pecans, pumpkin seeds, SOLO red wine, eggs (any type, not specific), potatoes, tomatoes, soya, coconut, various herbs, beef mince (not grass fed), vanilla extract. And before this point, I had already reintroduced tea and honey.

How fab is that? It means I have been able to eat homemade granola and nut/soya milk for breakfast, omelettes for lunch and have a chocolate or glass of wine as a treat when I want one.

I can’t tell you how relieved and joyful, instead of depressing, that feels. I knew avoidance was stressful – and not just for me either; it affects everyone close to you – but, boy, until that restriction lifts, you don’t realise how much anxiety it causes every minute of every day. Well you do, but it does bring it into sharp relief when you don’t feel it any more.

P -and quite a few people – have actually said I look younger. It’s the fear that’s left my face, the anxiety and depression gone from my mind, the frustration and that having to be strong and cheerful when you’re missing out on life feeling that I know you have too; the watching everyone else be ‘normal; it’s not much to ask for’ ever-present frustrated feeling. They’ve puffed away, finally. And I mean that finally too; it ain’t coming back, no way Jose!

So, let’s get to how it finally turned around.

A sudden shift. Not!

The funniest thing is it was very sudden. And when I say sudden, of course it was the culmination of two years’ really hard slogging consistent work but the switch itself was very sudden.

It’s a lot more complex than this, but let’s try and take the easy route.

I had a pain in my shoulder. It was so bad I couldn’t type to work. I recognised the feeling as I’d had it 10 years before when we were running the clinic in Uppermill and I had to give up the massage as I thought it was shoulder strain. But here it was back again. Exactly the same and yet I hadn’t done anything to cause a strain at all.

Then I remembered a few months before I had really bad leg pain, so much so I couldn’t walk on it properly for around 3 months on and off. That turned out to be emotional trauma held in the physical tissues and the only way we released it was to keep uncovering layers of trauma via meditation and unpicking them with clinical hypnotherapy, thank you Julie. There were a lot of layers but it went. Eventually. I still get the odd twinge which is a sign I am subconsciously – or even consciously – anxious about something.

Could this shoulder pain be the same thing maybe? I meditated on it for about an hour one morning after it wouldn’t shift for days, asking my body to tell me what was wrong and how to get rid if it. This sounds daft, I know, but it actually works. I’ll tell you how in the Healing Plan no doubt. I promised myself at the start of this to leave my sensible, analytical, biochemist-trained mind out of it and just accept and do whatever came up, and I have.

Anyway, eventually I got the distinct feeling that the pain was a strain from pulling my arm right back and punching something really hard! How odd. It fitted though. As a massage therapist, I knew which muscles would be involved and it was absolutely right. So, who was I punching?

Interestingly, the first punching was not me doing it; it was someone else’s anger and I won’t go into that. It went anyway once I’d acknowledged it. The next layer was me punching myself; a sort-of self sabotage behaviour and the sense was: ‘why are you continuing to punish yourself by denying yourself things – foods especially – you enjoy?’

This was interesting because, for the past month or so, every meditation ‘message’ that came up was telling me I was well in various ways. So, it was as if my body was showing me I wasn’t taking that message on board and that I was continuing to act in a self-sabotaging way. The sense was ‘you are well; go and eat a treat!’.

So, dear Reader, I did.

 

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Hotel Chocolat, bless them, had sent me a bloggers’ review bag of goodies at Christmas. I had tried my best – knowing it was as pure a chocolate as you could get and TGF safe – but I just couldn’t make myself try it. Depressing.  I kept it for ‘one day’ as you do.

Anyway, I went straight to the bag and ate some chocolate. My head nearly blew off. It is very strong chocolate anyway, even for someone who’d not tasted it for about 5 years! It was HEAVEN, I can tell you.

Of course, then the worry kicked in. What had I done? I was going to react. Oh no..and more besides. I decided to go and spend two hours walking on the beach below the house and distract myself for the time it would normally take for a reaction to occur: two hours on the dot usually for me.

Nothing happened.

I couldn’t believe it. I could not believe it.

I spent all evening talking to myself and keeping the worry down. ‘Everything’s fine now, there is no need to worry any more, this is an old feeling for a past illness and I don’t have that illness now, I am well, I can eat and drink safely now whatever I choose’ etc etc. I wore myself out and fell asleep.

I woke up the next morning and was still fine. P had been away and when he got back that evening, I asked him not to mention or say anything because this was ‘perfectly normal’ but would he please open a bottle of Cava (again saved for ‘one day’) and join me in a glass on our balcony? This was something I had promised myself ever since we moved in. One day, we would be able to share a glass of fizz on our very own sea-view balcony. It hurt me every time I saw someone else doing it and now here was my chance. At last.

With a very shocked expression, he did as I asked and we drank it together. I had the same worry and fear especially since the last glass of wine trial I had a year earlier after my initial psychotherapy sessions had resulted in four really horrible days involving a morphine painkiller. Nuff said.

Again, I talked myself down – a little less this time as I had the success of the chocolate to bolster me. I could do this and if I could this one, I knew I was well.

No reaction. And I had another glass the next day.

Since then, I have added back something every day for 3 weeks, started adding several new foods together, then combining them in the same meal etc. I decided that if my subconscious mind was asking me to believe I was well, I would show it I truly believed it and just went for it. No small amounts, no one at a time, no gentle reintro. I brooked no nonsense – and believe me, my mind tried and still does, but it is lessening more and more.

smileySo, how have I been?

The same as I was before, but with a nicer diet, an actual life and no depression! And that’s the point. It wasn’t the food that was causing the majority of my symptoms.

One of the things I realised just before the switch happened was that I went AIP/elimination diet because I was having mouth pain, migraines, fatigue, restless legs etc etc etc. They never really got better even on the few-foods diet for two years – the fatigue did, but the mouth and migraine never changed really and other things were cropping up regularly. So, it wasn’t the food; it was something else.

As part of this process, I was told repeatedly that the pain and hypersensitivity was down to PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). It took me three diagnoses to accept it — apparently it does everyone! – and it is only in the past 6 months working with Julie that the pain and symptoms have started to lessen significantly. I have learned the emotional triggers and how to release them and my own work to calm the amygdala down and change my subconscious thought patterns has worked. The biggest change so far, of course, is the ability to eat again, which I seriously doubted would ever happen.

I’m not there yet and  have a way to go but the food going back in is MASSIVE. I am now working on the two key remaining symptoms of migraine and mouth sores. These, I thought, were food reactions, but they are clearly not as I’ve not had any of them since I started reintroducing. Thank Goodness. They are much less as my system has calmed down.

The migraine when it started about 5 years ago was about a 12 sometimes on the Richter scale and lasted 5 days. The mouth pain was more than that. Both very debilitating. The migraine now is once a month – although I never had one last month….and is related to my hormone cycle definitely so I am hoping some B6 if NOW I can get it in will help. They score about 4-6 and last 1-2 days. I have had one episode of jaw pain in 8 months, although I get regular lymph node swelling behind my ears. The mouth sores are still constant. I haven’t been able to fight off an infection there I think, which is hardly surprising given such a deficient diet. This is why I encourage you to do the TGF Core Protocol. Sadly, I couldn’t.

What I mean to say is: I still get some symptoms because of the emotional trauma – in fact, I wouldn’t be surprised if the migraine and mouth pain are still related to that yet – my Bowen therapist and Julie are convinced they are so we’ll see; I get some of the symptoms because of my poor nutrient – and therefore organ/cellular depleted function (ie. fatigue, chronic infection, hormone imbalance), I get some symptoms now because I’ve got the foods back – my digestive system is not used to food and is grumbling a bit during this transition phase, which is to be expected!,  and I get some symptoms possibly because – as with any ‘normal’ person you pass in the street, some foods don’t like me and I am TGF. That’s NORMAL. What wasn’t normal was such a degree of hypersensitivity and that’s what I’m talking about here.

How did it get to be so severe?

The difficulty, for me at any rate, had come because of a sort-of perfect storm of issues and I am seeing that in many of you. This may be well wrong but I’ve tried to think about how this all came about in case it helps us work stuff out. This is as far as I’ve got with it so far (it’s interesting that this has come out as third person as if I can’t quite believe it’s me still yet!!):

Micki gets born with the genetic predisposition for a gluten related disorder, plus she is considerably premature and therefore immune-compromised, malnourished and neglected as a child. The genes for the GRD are triggered by any one of those via epigenetics as we know how that happens now. Then, we also have emotional trauma of various kinds as the ACE (adverse childhood event) disorder which is known to kick off hyper-sensitivity and trauma-related anxiety disorders in your 30s and 40s.

Right at the known vulnerable time for an ACE disorder (around 40), Micki’s trauma gets re-triggered and she develops major anxiety and hypersensitivity, later diagnosed as PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), although the diagnosis is ignored three times as this is so not how she sees herself! She chooses to believe it is to do with food. This belief comes about because she is a nutritionist and therefore sees the problems food cause all the time, plus she has given up foods to help various symptoms and has felt better: coffee for IBS, wheat for IBS, gluten for chronic fatigue etc – all valid biochemical choices to calm a gut down.

Brain iconHowever, now her subconscious has learned that giving up food makes her feel better. This thought and belief gets cemented nicely as a new neural pathway in her brain and she eventually only has to see, smell or touch food to not want to eat it so she can feel better. When she does eat it, her subconscious brain has learned that it is a perceived danger and causes a physical reaction to warn her off it. She becomes more and more fearful of food, of anything even related to food and eventually that fear also becomes a deep neural groove and everything becomes fearful. Just going out of the house, answering the phone, driving a car, going anywhere on her own becomes a real stress. She fights it and this causes more anxiety.

Going back to the ACE disorder and PTSD, Micki’s amygdala was programmed at a very early age that she is not safe and she has to do everything in her power to keep safe. The amygdala controls her emotional and physical reactivity and is now stuck on hyper. She sees danger everywhere from a subconscious point of view. The PTSD has been ignored for decades or, more accurately, put down to the food sensitivity and, when Micki is at her most happy and stable, the mind thinks she is now able to process what was buried in a dissociative manner all those years ago. Plus, a family event triggers it again so it now becomes urgent that the mind gets this sorted out.

The subconscious starts to  express the trauma and emotional states through the physical body in a bid to get noticed and dealt with.

Oh dear. Now Micki has a true GRD and ACE-triggered hypersensitivity anxiety disorder causing psychosomatic (physical) reactions.

It is only when Micki’s actual life becomes threatened by, sometimes I’ll admit suicidal, depression, not being able to eat, dropping to a size 6 and then not tolerating even water, that she wakes up enough to start looking at it from an emotional point of view because she now has no choice. She takes three actions that are what has led to the successful reintroduction of food now.

The Healing Process

  1. She starts to meditate every day without fail. This starts to calm the amygdala down and therefore the hypersensitivity and anxiety. This also eventually gives her a dialogue with her subconscious which then gives her clues to what is going on and what to do about each thing as it crops up. This involves even moving away from the trauma scene of the crime, if you like, and to a more healing environment by the sea!
  2. She begins neuroplasticity brain retraining in lots of different ways to talk to her subconscious and reprogram the wrong beliefs about food and illness. This effectively helps her build a stronger pathway to ‘I am well’ ‘I can eat safely’ which means the other pathways weaken. Gradually, the one gets stronger than the other. A neural pathway never disappears but you can build new ones and strengthen existing ones with the right techniques which then means the ones you’re not using wither. That’s a neurological fact she used to her advantage. If her mind could do this to her, it could undo it too!
  3. She sought treatment for the PTSD, trying various techniques and finding a combination of NLP and clinical hypnotherapy worked best.

Phew. What a ride! I am fascinated by it even though it was happening to me. It’s quite nice to try and see it objectively and, I hope, that means I will be able to show you how to do it yourself if you, too, are a hypersensitive like me.

What Next?

There is surely more to be done, of course. I am currently working with Julie to cement the mind changes, as well as a Bowen therapist and am exploring Polarity Therapy to help release the pain from my physical tissues and head which my meditations suggest are emotional in origin, at least in part. We’ll see.

I feel Reiki may well come in for rebalancing at some point, too. I have used laser treatment (thanks Gill, who helped with this) to increase oxygenation in the mitochondria and Qi Gong as a kind of movement meditation to help release my physical tissues too.

The one thing I have found is that the meditation is a must; that this healing has become part of life and that it feels nice to be doing things that support me instead of punching myself! There are many pathways you could take to achieve the same calming down of your system; this is just mine. I honestly think that what we need to do is get an over-arching view of what needs to be done and then choose from a kind of smorgasbord of techniques to find the ones that suit us and get us there.

naturopathy symbolMy job now is to write the Healing Plan and give you that to work with in the hope it will help you get some life back too. If I can do it, so can you. And you have no idea how long I have wanted to be able to say that!

I described myself to someone the other day as no longer being an ill person; I am now a normal person with a few health issues to sort out, like anyone else. Only someone who has been through this type of illness can truly know the difference between those two statements and the work that has gone in to turn that thought around!

Summary

The TGF illness is real. The hypersensitivity is very probably not and can be brought back down again using various techniques to calm the amygdala, change neural pathways and release beliefs, triggers and trauma. If I can do it, so can you. You can get well and I will show you how fully when I finish the Healing Plan. Meantime, go back to the Healing Series and read from the bottom up; a lot of the info is already there. This will take at least 6 months to do. Go and make a start.

I am well. I am well. I can eat. Say it with me…